My house got hit by Lightning!!!

This is no word of a lie. Sunday night my house got hit my lightning. I was lying in my bed and there was a crazy storm goin on outside. This loud thunder came and i thought to myself 'That one was close'. Little did i know, my house has just been hit. Anyways, long story short, the firemen came and checked things over. We have a big hole in our roof (it is now covered in plastic) Other than that, our computer, phone and satelite were all fried. Phones are back on but the other two will talk a little while. You may ask...' if you have not working computer, how are you blogging?' Easy, i am at my dads office. THough i never realised how much i use email to plan stuff until i didn't have my computer. But all is good. I just wont be checking email as frequently in the near futur, which is more the publics loss than mine. I still get to enjoy myself, but others we'll be missing out. hehe Anyways, that was some of the adveture I have had this past week. Have a good one.

A Walk with God

I went for a walk with my dog so that i might sort things in my head out with God. Talk things over in a way. Ask him to make sense of my thoughts and such.... and he decided to show me his art work. I don't know if you know this, but residential streets in the city are so beautiful. With the canopy of trees hanging over the streets and the beautifully green leaves. Each house has its own unique yard with flowers or lack there of, bushes or not... and then the sky was a light blue with nice random clouds decorating it. And it was one of those evenings where the moon was out, but it was still light. Every direction i looked, there was a master piece that was perfectly balanced. As i looked around, he made everything i was trying to figure out disappear, and his glorious creation brought a stillness to my spirit. Sometimes the best way to deal with our 'problems' is to enjoy the master pieces of Gods creation around us.

God likes flowers

I was lying in my bed trying to fall asleep. Because sleep wasn't coming so easily I was mulling over some stuff with God in my head. I was thinking, why do we like people or care about some people more than they care about us? I don't know if this happens to anybody else, but sometimes I have friendships where I genuinely want to know what’s going on with the other person, but I feel they aren't as interested in what’s going on with me. I was telling God (in my thoughts) that I wanted people to want to ask me those questions, not out of obligation but because they genuinely want to know. Then this revelation came to me. God does the same to us. He asks us how our days are and we don't always ask him in return how he is doing. So I made a point of asking him to share something with me. And I heard 'I like flowers'. It made me smile. It felt like God was showing me the vulnerable part of himself where he wanted someone to care enough to let him share something. He was waiting for me to ask him. I know for those reading this, it may not hit the same cord of revelation with you as it did with me. I mean 'I like flowers' sounds kind of cheesy if you read it the wrong way, and I can't really describe how it sounds in my head. Though maybe it will make you think, and maybe if you ask God, he will share something different with you. Something that will make you smile.

New Frontiers

When choosing life's path...

'Don't ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive, and go do that, because what the world needs is people who have come alive.' - Gil Bailie

To me, this line seems so powerful. As well, it’s my hearts cry, not only for myself, but for those around me. I long to see people step out and enjoy the adventure of life that God has put in them. It’s not only the journey that those around us see, but the journey we take spiritually as we trust God with the things that don't make sense.

'The spiritual life cannot be made suburban. It is always frontier, and we who live in it must accept and even rejoice that it remains untamed.' -Howard Macey

The reality of this last quote is daunting at times. My spiritual journey, or road of discovery, with God is confusing at most times. It is in away a huge puzzle that is being put together and ever single piece is cut into a different shape. Not one piece looks the same as another. The picture may look similar at certain parts as you put it together, but the way you arrive there is always different. If you look at some of the stories in the bible, you may notice that none of them repeat them selfs (other than some of the ones in the gospels). In every story, God is often drawing his people near to him by taking them on an adventure that has never been done before. For example, Joshua taking Jericho is a very unique way of doing things, but it called the Israelites to trust him. It was also never repeated again. God is the same with us; there is no formula. It is not a tame journey.

'Naturally, we are inclined to be so mathematical and calculating that we look upon uncertainty as a bad thing...Certainty is the mark of the common-sense life; gracious uncertainty is the mark of the spiritual life. To be certain of God means that we are uncertain in all our ways, we do not know what a day may bring forth. This is generally said with a sigh of sadness; it should rather be an expression of breathless expectation. (Oswald Chambers - My Utmost for his Highest)

I like these words. I like the idea of being certain of God, but not of everything else. I don't like knowing everything, but I like knowing that God has it under control and is very adventurous and fun at heart. Oswald's words challenge me, as do the other quotes. But it is not a guilty challenge where I regret how I have lived to this moment, but they push me to long for more. Long for the adventure that God has put before me. For the desires he has placed in my heart, and to trust him to take me to the new frontiers in my heart. Rather than being suburban and try and fit a boring cookie cutter shape.

Road Trip?

I want to go on a road trip. I need to get out of the city. You see, I was going to fly to New Brunswick the first week of July, so I go it off work. But last week, my trip got canceled. That’s right, I no longer have a place to go, but I still have to time off. So I am sitting here, weighing my options. What could I do to get a breath of fresh air, rejuvenate myself? I could volunteer at camp for the week, I could go visit some friends somewhere (fly), but most of all I want a road trip. I want to go on a road trip more than any of the other options. Yet it’s the only option that doesn't seem open at the moment. All my friends work and would need more than two weeks notice to go on a road trip. And where would I go? I don't really know.... somewhere fun I guess... where ever that is.
Why do I want to go on a road trip so bad when it doesn't even look like an option?
Anyways, I guess that is my little rant on how I want to go on a road trip. We'll see what actually happens. Maybe i will just go to camp....

Recieving Compliments

I don't know if you have ever refused a compliment from God, but I found myself doing it the other day. I never thought it would be so easy to overlook a compliment, but I even tried to explain it away. What compliment did I refuse? Well, someone informed me that they were telling a story including me to someone. The person listening to the story stopped them and asked if they meant me, repeating my full name and said 'That is a good girl" or something like that.
Not that I think I am a bad person, but sometimes in my thoughts I focus on the mistakes I make, and how I often disappoint because I am human. The little things I need to learn to do better and need to work on...but as I was thinking, 'he doesn't really know me'.... I felt God saying...." it’s true, that compliment is from me."
Why is it so hard to accept compliments, and some more than others? This is a question that I had to ask myself. Why is it so much easier to see all my imperfections and flaws? Even now, I am finding it hard not to turn my thinking towards my mistakes and little so called 'flaws'.

A House?

I can't believe it, my parents just helped my sister and her husband buy a house. A HOUSE!!!! That is so weird. They weren't even really looking seriously. They weren't even planning on looking at houses today. And now they have a house...... they have a house. That means they will be moving.... they will still be living close, but i wasn't expecting this. It happened so fast, but God definitely had a hand in it. Its crazy how he does the unexpected sometimes. CRAZY.
Anyways, it gets you thinking, 'I wonder what he has in store for me?' What is he planning, but hasn't told me yet? Life never has a dull moment when God is in control.