Gods affections

So i wonder why its so hard to let God love us, or at least, its hard for me to just enjoy his affections sometimes. God has really been revealing to me his longing for his people. How he has been longing to be one with us since the beginning of creation. Though, when i think of this... my heart breaks for those that will not turn, or aren't turning to him.
I was having one of those moments last night, as i was going to bed, where my heart was breaking for those who could not or would not see the glory of God and turn to him and go after his heart and then i heard God whisper to me 'But i want you.' It breaks me everytime he gives me a glimps of his affections for me. The feeling wasn't there long, but i remember it, and i don't want to forget it. I need to firstly give him myself. I need to let God love me. He wants to love me. Its not always about 'them'. (being the ministries)
I don't know if that makes sense or if anyone really reads this anymore... but thats what was on my mind.