Squished

Sometimes I feel squished, I feel stuck. There are so many things in life that are changing. Yet, there are also many that are staying the same. I feel God has been challenging me, calling me out into adulthood and into maturity, yet there are area's that seem to stay the same. Areas in which i sometimes feel my growth is being squished. I do like living at home, and its not like I could afford school and living on my own and paying off my car (which i am hoping will happen soon, yay!) But there are parts of me that i will only be able to discover and explore if i were to step out on my own. So today... I wish i had my own place. A place i could invite friends over to, a place that i could take more steps into my independence. I can't believe i am almost 22. Crazy, I am actually an adult, and its cool to see the way God has been encouraging me to discover more about myself and more about who i am in him, and giving me courage to step out into new tasks and challenges. Weither it is actually stepping out from under the care of may parents, or in other ways yet to be discovered. This is the element of surprise and adventure that God leaves me with, always giving me a sense in my heart, yet never really telling me the specifics before i need them.