Jumble of thoughts

How to put my thoughts to words? I don't really know if I can because I am not quite sure I understand them myself. I don't think I will put all my thoughts into this blog, it would be too hard. I will just say the conclusion I have come to at the moment. I can't stay here. I can't live at home forever. There are needs here, but I am not called here. I am called to the world. I want to go and be aware of all the needs of the world; I want to help people practically and spiritually. I want to love people. I don't want my home to be a material thing filled with objects I don't need gathering. I want it to be with God. I want to trust him to make me feel at home where ever I am. I want to bring the part of God, God has placed within me, to the nations. I want to learn about the different aspects of Gods character through the nations and all the people I meet. Where will I go? Everywhere. When will I go? I don't know. I guess I need to wait on God for that one, but he will let me know. I trust him. Part of me doesn't want to go, yet the bigger part of me knows I could never stay. Tomorrow these strong feelings I don't quite understand (there is more than I could put in words) will probably subside. I will be back to being content with my life at the moment. Yet, I know I will never be fully satisfied here, I know God as called me to a bigger life than Winnipeg; I just don't know when it will begin.