Changing
Do you ever have those moments when your realise how much you've changed, or maybe not so much changed but become more you? I had one of those moments yesterday. It in a way made me sad.
Sorry, i will explain that last sentence. I was hanging out with some friends from high school last night, as i do every so often. I love them. They are great people. I find that I see a lot of who i am in them. I think that's why i was friends with them in high school. But in high school i wasn't as me. I wasn't not me... i was still becoming me. I still am becoming me. Anyways, as i was sitting there with them, i was having fun, i enjoyed myself very much. I guess, there are just parts of my personality that i have discovered over the last two years that they don't really know, and i don't hangout with them enough for it to come out naturally. I hope that make sense. So in away i was sad because they were missing a part of me that i couldn't just force out.

2 Comments:
hmm shira. i understand what you mean. especially about becomming more of yourself! i feel like that often. i guess it is scary to when i see change, even if it is for the better. anything different has an element of fear. for me anyway.
being really me..is something i spend hours thinking about. because there are so many parts..or sides to me i don't know very well yet...and so i don't..really know how danielle would answer or act..or react...
we is really bothering. because i am the type of thinks about everything before i say it..usually..which means i have this stupid fight in my head..trying to work out what danielle would do...by then usually i've lost the moment..and i end up doing..or saying..or reacting in a way that contitutes other facters.. such as what does the person wnat or expect...or what will they like better...or something like that...
or being the same as i['ve always been..
it is hard to know what danielle would do..how God has created me...personality and all..because quite frankly i am danille. HA. and i know all the past pain and expreiences than make me tick..and function in the way i do...
and i don't want to be a product of the past..but someone whom God created me to be.. but the balance is hard...
maybe the answer lies somewhere eles. like not thinking so much about me..and directing thoughts eleswhere...and then my personality will be..simply what it is.. with all the factor coming together and making me me...
haha.. i wonder if that was abit confusing..but you'll get me.
i really like your writing shira. maybe oneday you'll write a book...
but more than anything i LOVE shira.. and miss you too much
danielle
I do understand you danielle. I am glad you enjoy my writting. I have to admit, that evening i was with my friends, i thought of you a lot and wished you could have been there. I was in the mood for danielle. My advice to you is to try not to think so much, because whatever comes natural is more or less closer to ourselfs than if you think through everything to specificly.
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