Random Midnight Rant

I hate that i can't sleep. I hate that i was so tired and looking forward to my bed and now, all i can do is stare at my ceiling. I hate that tomorrow i have to work an early shift and i can't sleep. I don't like that the music i tried to play to distract my mind so i could sleep didn't work. I don't like that i dream of a life that is to come, or that i wish is to come, but isn't within grasp yet.
Why does my sister get to drive to BC on a road trip with friends. Why can't i? Why do people show me pictures of all the people they have seen as they have traveled the world? I want to meet those people. I want to meet my own people. I want to leave on my adventure, but why does God keep telling me my adventure is here at the moment?
PATIENCE!!!! Why does it have to be so hard sometimes? How can i be content one moment and not the next?....OK i think i will be alright. I am tired and need to go to bed. I can let my dreams go and know that God is guiding them. Its not easy, but i know i can do it.