God's Grace

I love God. He is so good. Earlier this morning I was having a rant day. Thanks to Jessica and Erin I was able to rant off some stuff to them. They were great friends and I love them very much. Anyways, I guess I was avoiding some issues God wants me to deal with. As a result I have not spent as much time with him as I would like. Though, he has pushed me into situations that I need to turn back to him. I had my small group over tonight, and I new it would suck, and God would not be able to move as well unless I spent time preparing with him. I scrunched my nose at him a little because I didn't want to spend time with him, yet did at the same time. I also have to teach on Sunday and I really wasn't feeling like I was in a good pace for teaching. Yet, I knew God wanted me to and it wasn't about me.
God is showing me his grace. In the middle of all this fighting and resisting him, he has given me a joy in my heart. He has given me a heart to teach on Sunday. I feel blessed. I don't deserve it, I have been terrible to him this week, yet he insists on drawing me in, despite how I feel and I love him for it.